For those of you who 'know' me...(not in the Biblical sense, thank you very much).
For those of you who 'know' me.....you know that I tend to, um, er, uh......
well, I kinda like sorta, um,......
SIN with my MOUTH.
Or as my dear friend Aunt Jodi tells me, "You were born without a FILTER".
Which means I say things that shouldn't be said, or I let out 90% of my thoughts instead of the 10% percent that are acceptable to be orated.
It's confession time, repentance time, and change time.
Cuz, there's kind of another problem with the 'Mouth of the South'.
I cuss like a sailor. And a pirate. And a sailing pirate.
Oh, but I promise you, it is MUCCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHH improved once I had children.
I save the 'bad words' for private adult conversations, or I use them in print in my writings.
I certainly still 'say' them in my head, whether I want to or not, but they don't cross my lips as much as before.
And I am very proud to say that my children do NOT use any of those words that they know are VERY bad, even if Mom (or equally as likely....BBFMD = BIG BAD FOUL MOUTHED DAD...sorry Two Swords, but we're in this one together) slips every once in awhile. If I don't catch myself, well, don't you worry, I've got two little brilliant tattle-taling FrankEinsteins to remind me that "Mama! You just said something I N A P P R O P R I A T E"!
But then, very recently, a very dear and most respected long time "2 AM" friend of mine mentioned that he was searching for a new job.
I responded that I would certainly pray for him, and if he needed a letter of reference, I would be more than happy to write one for him, since, well, I kinda know my way around a keyboard if youknowhatimeanverne.
He said, 'Yeah Heather, but, um, you cuss......A L O T."
SHOCKED (as I thought I had um.....stopped....doing....that.....), I said the only thing I could think of, which was:
"I promise that I won't in your REFERENCE LETTER?"
That was several months ago, but it's been weighing on me ever since, like most painful sins of self-awareness tend to do.
Let's look at this like an addiction.
If you try to stop smoking, usually you use replacement therapy such as nicotine patches, gum, Kojak lollipops, Cymbalta, or, in the case of Billy Two Swords - Jolly Ranchers.
I have tried to bite my tongue, but my artificial Tourette's Syndrome just spits out these words that are often bitingly sarcastic, and sometimes, yeah, they are downright M E A N.
So today, a thought (a pure one, no less) popped into my head.
I need to use replacement therapy to modify my own behavior!
The psych degree pays for itself...A G A I N!
For the past two hours, I've tried to think of ONE word that will encapsulate all those other 'bad' words that I have said.
And, yep, I've said every one of them. 'cept one. There's one I've never said. Never said it, never will. If you want to know what it is, well, you'll have to figure it out on your own, cuz I ain't sayin' it. My Mama and Daddy didn't raise us with THAT word in our house.
The point is this.
I've found THE word.
An awesome word.
A good word.
A word that will garner attention (as if I need an ounce MORE of attention, seriously).
A word that will fit when I stub my toe and need to SCREAM.
A word that works in the hospital setting when needles the size of meat thermometers are being shoved into me like I'm the Christmas prime rib.
A word that works in front of my children.
A word that works for.....ME.
You might have heard of it before, might not.
If not, go ahead and 'google' the title of this post - AMISH SPRING BREAK.
Okay, so here it goes.
There's no turning back.
I'm heading for:
R U M S P R I N G A